How many weeks has it been since my mum first told me the bad news?
I don't have a clue to be honest. Time seems to have been stolen from us. Precious time.
I've had doubts recently. So many "what if's?" have been rushing through my mind, like a roll of credits on a film. What if mum doesn't get through this? What if she never gets better? What if she's never going to be my mum again, what if she changes?
I feel guilty in a way for being so doubtful and negative but I can't help it.
Today, I searched "breast cancer survival rates" on the internet. I saw that mum had obviously been thinking the same thing, she'd already clicked that link. We're sharing our doubts.
My mum is one of the strongest women I know, she's determined, caring and completely self-less - I owe it to her to be by her side, helping her with each struggle she faces so whatever the outcome of this battle may be, we'll be grateful that it has made us a much stronger family.
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Hi Kate,
ReplyDeleteLast March my Dad was diagnosed with advanced bowel cancer. Although I'm older than you at 31, my parents are my rocks and until that point I still felt like their little girl. When the diagnosis came, it was a feeling I simply cannot describe but you'll know what I mean.
All I can say is that if you can think, think positively. The prognosis for my Dad wasn't brilliant but we found out 2 weeks ago that he is now clear of cancer and on the road to recovery. His doctors said that sheer determination to get through it combined with the love and support from the family aids recovery more than people give it credit for.
Throughout the experience there were so many questions I was afraid to ask, and things I was scared to say out loud - probably as I wanted to protect my family - but I found a friend who listened and helped my through that.
I wish you and your Mum the very best, Jo xxx
Hi Jo,
ReplyDeleteI'm incredibly sorry to hear that you had to go through your dad having cancer. I know it's a hard thing to endure.
I'd also like to say that your advice has been the best I have recieved. I'm going to focus on being positive for my mum and she has no problem with determination - trust me!
I'm glad that your dad pulled through and is on his way to recovery.
Thank you so much for not only providing me with all your advice and kind words but also for reading my blog!
Wishing you all the best, Kate. xx